Envy!

I am jealous of the plants and their flowers

They enjoy the rains, they enjoy the breeze

They always welcome the birds and bees

They are not bothered; they don’t have woes

They enjoy the moment; rain or shine

I am so jealous

Melancholy in Bang-a-lore

I response to a friend's query about me:

I’m just fine

I’m just fine

I’m here still in ‘lore’ with a ‘bang’

I’ve been here

For too long

Now I need to kick me out

When? I donno

To where? I donno

I just know that I am glum

I’m still here

I’m still here

Walking, talking but lost feeling

Time stands still

Thoughts too still

Filled to the brim with blue at heart

But glum am I?

Donno too

Ran out of tears to cry my soul

Some climb high

Some reach stars

I’m jus’ so doomed in apathy

But…

I’m alive

I’m alive

Count on me to share your sobs

Unflutter by

She was beautiful, or so she seemed in that split second when I could catch her glimpse.

But probably she thought she was ugly.

Well she was, although I would not call ugly, rather ‘not-so-beautiful’. This I realized after a moment, when she came close to me; very close.

It would have been bothering her that she was ugly, unlike her friends. Perhaps that’s why she wanted to end her life. She died; infront of me. In a way I am responsible for her murder. If it were not for me and my vehicle at that moment, at that spot, may be she wouldn’t have lost her life.

Was that intentional or accidental?

I killed her.

Or rather, she committed suicide.

I don’t know her name.

And I don’t want to name her, just for this obituary. Let that be a mystery. Just like her life.

Life in her cocoon must have been a bliss, and she might have seen hell in this world.

Rest in peace, dear butterfly.

I am scared

(Just thinking aloud)

I am scared when everything falls in place


I am scared when there is no confusion

I am scared when I suddenly discover an important document which I have been searching for over 3 years

I am scared when I find out my almost-lost debit card

I am scared when I get all what I was looking for

I am scared when I unexpectedly receive some expensive gifts

Everything seems so perfect.

I am scared.

I am scared that after perfection comes chaos

So is the law of nature, I presume.

I am scared something is cooking, and would blow up at the wrong time

Let there be some imperfections, so that there is a balance.

I don’t want a full meal every day, every time

I would prefer to sleep hungry once in a while.

But sleep, I must.

Sleep peacefully.

I am scared.

I am scared of perfections.

To be significant over successful

Chasing materials here I came
To this big place which made me discover
The unsatisfied fellows who worship
Those materials which they don’t need

I came running to this place
In search of treasure and wealth
Which would add some more glow
To my life; I was wrong

But I don't hate me for coming this far
To realize some more is no more
And that any more wealth I add,
will not be seeking the real pleasure

I now face a big white wall
The end of which I have no clue
But I drew my dream on it
The dream is not to draw my dreams

The dream is to live my dreams
And be significant; not successful
So I made up my mind
To take a leap across the wall

While I move back to gather the pace
And energy to cross the wall
Thoughts keep rushing and gushing to me
Making unseen dreams, uncertain

But fear I not, for I take a leap and I know
If there’s a river, I’ll also have my boat
If there’s a desert, I’ll also have my camel
If there’s a forest, I’ll also have my jeep

Gather courage, Jump over. NOW !!

When else do I?

When I was 3, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, once you go to school, you will have lots of friends to play. Now don’t shout’

When I was 5, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, once you go back home in the evening, you can play’

When I was 7, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, did you finish your homework?’

When I was 9, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, can’t you see we are watching news’

When I was 11, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, look at your brother, see how quiet he is’

When I was 13, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, you’re now grown up, and don’t fool around’

When I was 15, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, did you learn for your board exams?’

When I was 17, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, you people need to be role models for the juniors’

When I was 19, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, is this the age to play around, when you’re in the college?’

When I was 21, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Stop that now, Now that you have got the offer from that MNC, behave responsibly’

When I was 23, when I talked aloud and laughed and played, all said, ‘Ah ! he was such a nice boy. Pity, that his happened to him’

Then I did not talk aloud, laugh or play.

But people, please tell me, when do I talk aloud, laugh and play?

What 2 mins of idle time can do to you..

I am a thought
Your formed me
And made me run
With no rest

I am making rounds
In between your ears
Oh when will you let me out
So that I can enter more ears

You are my father
But what use am I
If I don’t serve the purpose
For which you created me

So let me out
Let me go
And trigger the process
Of making my siblings

I cant be alone
For I am scared.
I need company
To travel new heights